i’m flat. been operating at +5 for so long being at +1 almost feels depressed. i’m aware that my +1 is probably a +5 to most folks. no threats, no peril, no warnings, no worries. the sun is shining and the water’s clear. sitting on top of maslow’s hierarchy in rodin’s thinker pose wearing a “been there, done that” t-shirt. content, relaxed, happy. settling it in so i can enjoy this period of non-excitement. drifting into a reflective mindset. a time i frequently turn to express via writing, as a severe focus can be achieved. possibly coming down off the high that was 2017…
if i struggle with it, it will worsen. once i recognize what’s going on it’s best to relax and let life happen. the mojo will return as it always has. let the excitement come to me and don’t chase it. continue the routine of work, chores and handling business even if in a remedial, non aggressive way as not to fall too far down this rabbit hole. don’t force myself to accomplish but when i see something easy, regardless how insignificant, that will assist in the process of my journey, do it. if not, just keep taking my ass to work and let everything else go. handle the business when sitting in that chair…
and try try try not to eat too much…
and just as it’s a surprise and like it’s the very first time when my excited energy returns, so is this more relaxed lower energy state. it takes me a day or so to realize what’s going on. a few times i thought i was getting sick or catching a cold. the experience that comes with getting older (if you pay attention and process it) is a wonderful powerful guide and tool. a self-comforting mechanism that brings confidence via “i’ve been here before.”
relaxed into being able to feel just how good of a place i am in right now. chill in this for a while until that more aggressive energy returns with it’s eagerness to go higher and farther. use this time to figure out roughly what “higher and farther” is…
