|date||event||location (link to
taste of america
rose bowl – pasadena, ca
venice beach, ca
weapon of choice
ayo & the yoruba house ensemble
the aggrolites with chris murray
downtown artist district music fest
los angeles, ca
engineers day picnic
whittier narrows – whittier, ca
|06-26-03||tower of power
average white band
|oxnard performing arts center
|06-21-03||festival del sol||macarthur park – los
|06-13-03||sunset blvd||west hollywood, ca|
the temple bar
– santa monica, ca
|the temple bar
– santa monica, ca
the bad plus
russell gun/ethnomusicology/dj apollo
|ucla jazz reggae festival: jazz day –
ucla drake stadium – westwood, ca
|05-22-03||weapon of choice
fais do-do – los
|05-03-03||p-funk allstars||the norva – norfolk, va|
|05-02-03||p-funk allstars||byrd stadium – university of maryland|
|04-12-03||p-funk allstars||henry fonda theatre –
|04-11-03||p-funk allstars||house of blues – anaheim, ca|
|04-10-03||p-funk allstars||avalon ballroom – san
|04-05-03||hosey wedding & reception||pasadena, ca|
|04-01-03||fishbone||amoeba music – hollywood, ca|
|03-28-03||venice beach boardwalk||venice beach, ca|
|03-26-03||modern groove assembly
|the temple bar
– santa monica, ca
dj and the drummers
|the temple bar
– santa monica, ca
|the temple bar
– santa monica, ca
intergalactic space gypsies
fais do-do – los
|03-02-03||macy gray||the groove – anaheim, ca|
|the temple bar
– santa monica, ca
the v band
|bb kings – universal city, ca|
|02-18-03||jacob fred oddessy
global funk council
knitting factory– hollywood, ca
man vs machine
bang bang bunny
|the key club – hollywood, ca|
|02-15-03||anti war march / rally||hollywood, ca|
duane la rue
|the temple bar
– santa monica, ca
the wiltern – los
|the temple bar
– santa monica, ca
williamsfebuary 5, 2003 templebar
soon as i walked in the place, i met marvette william’s energy. she is a
black female with a skinny white girl type body and some ways as i could
see. she was meeting and greeting and fromn the moment i saw her i knew
she was the principal this evening. she filled the place with her
persoanality and that was very good. and as i thought about her
performance this morning, i couldnt remember any real "soul"
in it. dont get me wrong now, she is cute, sexy, outgoing and very close
to what i consider the ideal female. she has most of the rhythm of a
black female but she moved as a white girl. most of the voice power of a
black female, but sang kinda "traditionally white?"she did
sets with afreaka nature and fatslice.
the afreaka nature set was rock-popish. a kinda flat in between music
that didnt seem to have any bite. like the songs were written in the
70’s or sumn. then fatslice came on and did a few songs before she
joined them and their music had more bite, energy and attitude. in the
group was a big black brotha on sax. the kind of big black dude with
free flowing afro that when you see him you know he can groove. and he
did. her set with them had more bite and substance. still cant call it
soulish, not sure what to call it.
then marvette did a set with fatslice that was her music and this was
good. she had two back up singers join her and the black male was into
it the way only a black (slightly femine) male can be. his movement and
look on his face said he was enjoying doing this and doing his thang.
marvette williams did the songs from her ep and they were vibey, with
good energy and good movement and good vocal. it was like night and day
from the first set. though once again i dont recall much of a soul
feeling, but got a definite vibe.
the special this night was morcheeba. between sets the dj had in
rotation morcheeba’s "who can you trust?" cd. so like every
3rd song was a cut from one of my all time fave albums. i danced and
vibed to this. and the fact that im gonna see morcheeba perform live for
the first time this saturday made it just that much more.
febuary 8, 2003 wiltern
the wiltern is one of those huge beautiful plush theatres that has been
converted to have standing and dancing spaces. very well done as they
made several levels with tables and standing room with a pit area at the
stage (that they only let in the 1st 200 people with wristbands). i gets
there and rosey is playing. she is a cute not skinny white girl (she had
a nice big butt) who played white girl vibey music. i thought it really
cool that i recognized the musicians that accompanied her; josh lopez on
guitar and davey on percussion are temple bar regulars. anyhows her
white girl vibey music had a good groove to it at times.
the stage was big and the lighting was gorgeous. the colors and
background created by the lighting was much better than im use to. a
rapper pace1 got it started before morcheeba and he was cool. morcheeba
felt very polished and professional. they seemed to have a very refined
stage presence. that, the lighting and the quality of the sound system
gave it an almost upidity formal feeling.
morcheeba makes some of my fave music. i was excited to see them for
the first time live and they did not disappoint. little black bald
headed girl skyler has a very nice voice. her stage presence is playful
and open. she danced and vibed and sang with the music. she had on some
high heels that seemed bigger than she was. the last song was rome was
built in a day and it moved with the audience singing.
once again, i was like the only on beat in this young white crowd.
there was a guy close to me who would clap on time with me most of the
grooves and that was cool. but for the most part, the crowd could not
find the beat. i found a good spot middle on the first tier and grooved
not letting the non-dancers and rhythmless around me slow my groove. i
mean, if everybody around me is standing still and im the only one on
beat, no matter how right i am, i am the one going against the grain
kinda. sometimes i feel like showing off that i gots the groove.
sometimes i want others to be on beat and groove with me so i can groove
deeper. sometimes the grooveless irritates me, standing still like they
do or by being off beat. but this night though i was very mellow, i was
less effected by the grooveless than usual and did my thang regardless.
feb 14, 2003 downey, ca
happened upon this place becuase of too much traffic on valentines day.
before i did i left hand caught a plastic shopping bag that flew by my
car on the freeway. two instances of people who had seen me snag it told
me it was a good catch, and it was. anywayz we at acapulcos and its
hispanic karokee. everything was in spanish, all the songs and the
between songs banter. then between songs they played brick’s dazz. then
they played "we want the funk" by parliament. needless to say
where my energy went. in a non english place i happened on accident, i
find the funk.
march & rallyfeb 15, 2003
i have never seen more diversity and creativity in one place before in
my life. hundreds of extremely creative witty signs, costumes, displays,
clothing. music was hip-hop funky. had very good beat. i vibed the
crowd. i danced all day. we marched from hollywood & vine to sunset
and labrea. rob reiner, cast of west wing. band i recently saw at the
temple bar burning star played. never have i seen so many different
kinds of people express so cleverly and creatively in my life.
crowd kinda boo’ed the "jesus saves" people as we walked
by. they estimated 100,000. 600+ rallies around the world. global. did
this form of protest begin with the civil rights movement? was it
created by a black american. to see the whole world use this form of
protest which is definitely american, and a big part of democracy.
fred oddessy, global funk council
feb 18, 2003 knitting factory
jacob fred is a 3 piece; organ/keyboard, bass and drums. funky funky
jazz grooves. noticed that riffs were played once, hardly repeated. not
many repeating grooves. music went in any direction at any time, very
refreshing. kim manning and a white female with heavy soulful like voice
sang sat in for a song. very good deep funky jazz. bass player
occasionally used electronics to make his bass make higher pitched
sound, like a folk guitar or sumn, not low bass stuff and did like a
was the only black male in the place, crowd was younger as this is 16
and over. dj grooved with funky groove movement beats. then he uses a
monologue of an african praising the african man and his ways of love,
universe and peace. once again i was struck, why is it that so many
white kids embrace black music and philosophy so much.
global fiunk council was a full band, but i dont seem to remember
anything about them..strange.
diaz, the v bandfeb 25, 2003
not worth the $$. $8 to park, $10 to get in, and i spent $9 for; orange
juice/ginger ale, fries and tip. total of about $27 for mediocre musical
performances. though darrell diaz was ok, his music was too soft. mellow
and good at times yes, but very soft. maybe to soft, too calming as when
the next band came on things were really mellow. he had lots of
percussion and a very cute thick black female who i enjoyed just staring
at. enjoyed just looking ather pretty brown skin on a large nicely think
frame, flowing curly hair, very nice smile…
the v band was blonde skinny white girl with low ridin jeans and baby
doll shirt with belly and hips exposed to the point she got stares
before the show. she was very cute and all, but struck me as a too
sexy-cute. maybe im getting old and she was young. she had a good voice,
though her songs and vibe seemed hurried, nervous. like she didn’t relax
in a groove. she may not have had much rehearsal time with this band,
but still i thought she could have relaxed and settled into a groove and
let the strength and bit of soulfulness in her voice come out. i loved
her long thick blondish curly hair. one funny thing too is that more
than once she kepted time off the beat, but she wasnt off beat
nerve, naturez dezignfeb 28, 2003
optic nerve was better than the last time i saw them. i seem to think
the rhythm guitar made a difference, but maybe im wrong. they sounded a
bit "updated" this time, more of their music and lyrics
sounded more current (as oppossed to music that sounded like it was
written by teenagers in the 70’s like last time). but there were a
couple songs that sounded so sappy they had to be doing it on purpose.
the message, terminology and the repition of certain words and chorus
made the music sound so outdated that it made me laugh more than once. i
couldnt figure it out. but i am still deeply infatuated with audra so
whatever she does is right with me. fanny has a very good voice and she
cusses, and for some reason i like that.
naturez dezign was a little less than the last two times ive seen
them, but they still were good. i like the song "relax your
mind…." i absolutely love when she sings that.
graymarch 2, 2003 the groove
p-funk all over da’place and i had on my pfunk1 jersey. for most of the
evening, i was the only person dancing, the only person on beat.
walked up to dj booth, commented on the music. soon as i did the
ethel merhman show tune music stopped. the next song to come on was
indie arie? singing about how much she loved that "brown
skin." once again, i was the only black person in this orange
county house of folx having a pre-show dinner. i laughed out lous and
asked the dj why its that im always the only black face in a white
croiwd listening to a person sing the praises of blackness. during this
song i danced throughout the place and while getting a bottled water one
of the white female bar tenders was clappin her hands off beat. i told
her "no, your not on beat." i then showed her where the beat
was by keeping proper time and it was a playful cool thing.
the dj was groovin medium old funk like outstanding, etc and
by this time i made my way to the 2nd tier so more of the grooveless
could see me. i mean, i looked over the crowd and its ALL WHITE FOLX
JUST SITTING THERE. NO RHYTHM, NO HEAD BOBBIN, NO DANCING, NOTHING. i
was the only dancing and the only on beat. i stood in the back knowing
that when i went to the 2nd tier i would have this audience seeing me.
when i got there i wasnt fully in the groove. i was a bit
"nervous" or whatever and it took a few minutes for me to
settle into the groove where i couldnt get off beat. played michael
jackson’s heartbreak hotel, then he played steve arrinton’s weak
in knees. old funky songs i have on tape and have recently
listened to. so this settled me into that groove and i danced knowing
rhythmless eyes were on me. then they played (not just) knee
deep. i heard somebody say when the song cam on and i made my move
"uh oh, they’re playing hios music." and by the time the
dj played knee deep, i was in the groove. i was feeling it. and i danced
very proudly for all to see. i looked back at the crowd never
missin a beat with a big ole smile of enjoyment. doin my thang to my
music. feeling every drop of the moment. i grooved to every beat and
change of my fave studio recorded song. afetr the song was over i could
have sworn i heard a small cheer from part of the crowd. after that
the dj played get it up by the time, and i continued to groove deeper.
often turning so the crowd could see i knew the words to these songs i
know they prolly never heard before.
very cute non blonde white girl complimented me on my vibe. she said
i had a very good vibe. this was pre-show groovin. i told her with a
kinda serious playful look "imagine being the only one." she
said she had no rhythm. i told she wasnt alone and motioned to the rest
of the crowd.
arik marshall playing the synth groove to flashlight and then
flashing the p-funk sign
parody song of archie buinker that started with "boy the way
george clinton played."
macy doing the "ready or not, here we come" chant and then
a couple chorus’ of one nation
numerous compliments on my jersey. pats on the back for my vibe and
macy was cussin a little, saying fuck and talkin bout fuckin to an
all ages crowd. also about smoking a joint. one of the cool parts of the
show she pulled some kids up on stage during a song and let them kinda
sway and move to the music. then they did a rockettes style line and did
the kick and it was very warm. it was good to see the young kids on
stage and it felt wholesome. i was into it.the kids were into it too.
very willing to participate.
macy did her hits and the band was tight. her band was arik marshall
on guitar, bass player (who looks like john black or the guy who sat in
with john black one time), a black female percussionsist, a black female
on keyboards and a brutha on drums. not toomuch to say about the songs,
but the music is good. very, very good movement and energy.
i was in the pit and had plenty of room. very close to the stage.
disgraciasmar 7, 2003 fais do-do
returned after a break to catch the tail end of one band when the house
music comes on and its: parliament’s up for the downstroke. i
hollered. then came chocolate city (once again there was only two
black people in the place as this racially pro-black song played), p-funk,
mothership connection and we want the funk. as we want the
funk played the guitar for band warming up started playing with the
riff. then the drums drifted in. next thing i know we groovin to an
improv live version. it was good. and when it was over the guitar player
stated with excitement that they were still playing in time with the
track. why is it that almost everywhere i go i hear p-funk? and i wasnt
wearing no pfunk propaganda clothing either.
trulio disgracias was good this night. the band was made up of young
cats i didnt recognize, but they grooved. good vibey jam session. funky,
very spirited. like jambandish, but noticeably slightly more funky.
trulio had a couple of youn brothas who rapped and one played drums.
hispanic rappers from the crowd got up on stage and did their thang.
vicky calhoun sounded really good too. saw lonnie earlier in the night,
but he was gone by the time trulio hit the stage.
norwood ever so slightly morphed into red hot momma by
funkadelic. vicky calhoun was calling for it more than once before
we got into it. but the thing was how mr fisher was playing another
funky bassline when i noticed the slightest adjustments and the faint
groove of red hot momma. man that was good. several p-funk chats and
riffs in the music.
it was lauren’s birthday and a very well spirited night.
jabudah was ok. natural afrodisiac was good as always. these boys
seem like they come to play and they have a lot of percussion so there
are a lot of good rhythms.
jellybean was doing her dance good this evening. after i got warmed
up i was able to almost keep up with her. very, very good evening of
music and funky vibe.
march 12, 2003 templebar
audra was good, she was very good. i love her energy on and off stage.
very good neo-soulful groove vocals with a very good flow. fanny
franklin (who has a voice so good i enjoyed just overhearing her order a
drink) and another tall black cute female (with booty nice) did backing
vocals. it seemed at first audra’s lead vocals were hurried and too
loud, but she seemed to settle in cause when them 3 girls sang together
it flowed wonderfully. on the last song the girls were in groove and
audra on lead vocal was able to fly and she did. since she is my current
primary infatuation i was moved to feel her get deep like that. i knew
she had a good voice, but this song really showcased it and i digged it.
richie rich on drums.
homestyle was groovin also. rap funkish hiphop. the rhythm guitar in
this band was on it. shook hands with bands primary and told him he gave
me one of their cd’s at 1650 when they played there awhile back. their
music was not all hip-hoppish, it had rock, funk and jazz and all of it
was on groove. his rap had good movement. he also did a thing where he
said "anybody like bootsy collins." (everywhere i go p-funk)
and then they did a song where he imitated bootsy’s voice, playing
hendrix over a cream groove.
just listen was a white dude with obvious black hip hop influence. it
was a full band with white female also on vocals. she was very jazzy hip
hop vibey. their grooves were very intricate, innovative. compliacted
rhythms under blue-eyed jazzy soulful vocal groove and hip hop rap. they
came on late and i was kinda tired but i still was diggin this bands
groove. the lead singer/rapper played sax and clarinette also and had a
very nice bounce on the beat. in his on stage dialogue he said his
mother was vacationing in africa. i spent a good part of yesterday
researching a trip to africa.
sometimes its hard to put into words, buit i had a really good time
last night. when it gets as good as it did last night sometimes it hard
to describe. there werent any major events that could be described, it
was just a good evening. i danced and vibed and enjoyed and drifted and
was in a really good place. immense pleasure from the simple &
little things in life, thats heaven. an euphoria from just being. i love
the templebar. i love my life. also a cutie who use to work where i
am now recognized me and introduced herself.
dj and the drummers, manzares
march 13, 2003 templebar
lonnie on bass. fish on drums, rappers, singers sat in. gabby on sitar
and ukeleyle keeping rhythm (real good at times). davey on percussion.
foley in the house. audra fanny in the house. elizabeth on trombone. met
and talked to people this night more than usual. met a p-funky white
girl who was on beat. laurens mom. lamar miles. danced all night again.
was good to dance with p-funky white girl on beat.
FoLey, Brewster, Bricks in the house…
Don’t Let your soda pop…
3/14/2003, 4:04 pm
|p-funky girl on beat. free spirited seemingly
intoxicated white girl approaches and asks for a light. i give her one
and conversation ensues with her, me and my anti-bush I button wearing
buddy. i eventually drift away and return and they are still
conversating outside. somehow the topic shifted and she says "i was
listening to p-funk on the way over here." this intrigued me so i
ask questions; "why were you listening to p-funk?" "how
did you first hear p-funk" "why do you like p-funk."
early in the questioning she felt i was "sweating" her (as it
seems most humans do when i show any kinda deeper interest in what they
like) and i briefly summarized my p-funk situation and the fact i have
websites devoted to it. then somewhere during all this in her free
spirited way she shouted "KILL WHITEY!!" i turned to my buddy
who i was glad was a witness cause i had no p-funk propaganda clothing
on nor did i mention anything about race.
i went on to tell her i have a website dedicated to rhythm and ive
done essays on why white people are so into black music and blackness.
she in her seemingly intoxicated way said she prolly could help me out
and articulate the feelings she has for funk and rhythm. i said cool and
gave her my website name and when i did her buddy screams out
"PFUNK1.COM." im not into advertising but i do got ego and to
hear my creation broadcast like that by someone i just met was cool.
(that and the fact audra (i love her) and fanny were standing like right
anyways the night goes on and the house music is groovin and so is
p-funky white girl. and she is groovin on beat!! i was into this. then
the dj played atomic dog and i went into groove. and p-funky white girl
was right there, on beat with me, trying to hang. i grooved deeper. it
felt so good to actually dance with someone who was on beat and could
keep the beat. i was all over the rhythms and even threw off-grooves
(but still on beat) at her and she maintained her rhythm. this not only
made me feel good, but it "pushed" or encouraged me to a
higher energy and a higher groove consciousness. i was able to get added
energy and dance deeper into groove as i used her beat with mine to feel
a more complicated groove. (or sumn like that, the experience is still
to new to me to find the proper words to describe).
its like getting synergy from a group. i was able to vibe her groove
and literally feel energy or adrenaline running thru my body. all this
while staying within my groove and on my beat. she still had them white
girl moves but the moves were in a pattern that made beauty with the
music. she had a groove on beat and i had a groove on beat. for me to
experience our grooves together (and dont forget we dancing to p-funk
atomic dog) was euphoric.
i imagine one day experiencing the whole house under a groove like
this. i wonder what power and energy a group doing this would have. how
we all would feel. to look around and see everybody in a visual harmony
with each other and the music. to feel that visual harmony.
i believe also there must be physical energies (not just conscious)
associated with people moving in time. electricity is induced by moving
objects thru or past other objects. if you have a whole room of
individual people moving as one, their collective energies may
accumulate and act as one energy within its surroundings. our
atmosphere, the earth and everything has a potential energy which can be
induced by motion or movement.
you cant have sound without motion.
sound is a direct representation of some kind of motion.
rhythm is sounds in sync. this should then also indirectly represent
motions in sync
relative motion (an object moving relative to another) creates energy
energy is matter.
matter is energy
can motion create matter?
can ya feel me?
do you understand the nature of my curiosity?
i believe there is a science in rhythm, consciousness and energy that is
and to explore it, you may need to have rhythm and vibe to fully
cause from the euphoria i get is a hit of adrenaline (or whatever) to my
brain that in my experience has heighten my awareness and creativity.
its like i can control and pump energy to my mind/brain and use this
energy to think deeper, pushing and expanding my creativity. pushing and
expanding my creativity enables me to see more creative solutions to
questions and or problems. maybe enabling me to use more brain capacity
then the stereotypical normal human being.
groove assembly,reel grace,klosed minded
march 26, 2003 templebar
semi-niggas in mi fave place last night with hat ghetto brashness. an
aggressiveness im not use to seeing in the templebar. not saying good or
bad, just saying different. the word nigger/nigga was used a lot this
klosed minded was bass, guitar, drums and lead spoken
word/rapper. his message was solid, but his voice was not soothing to
listen to. came off a bit un-rehearsed and "just put together"
feeling at times. he probably just needed some echo or reverb. the music
and groove was solid.
mga girl 1 got on mic and asked if anybody wanted to "spit"
after the first set. never saw that before at mi fave place. a brotha
did spit and he was about life in the ghetto and racism. basically to
sum it all up he finished with "but im still seen as a n-i-g-g-a"
klosed minded sang "dont call me whitey, nigga. dont call me
nigga, whitey. there was a lot of racism talk
i so love black female. the lighter skinned mga girl 1 who i was
infatuated with not too long ago has an aggressive energy i find
attractive. the darker skinned mga girl 2 had very pleasant vocals and
rap and shook that thang one time so dead on beat and in a way ive only
seen black female do it. it was a quick glimpse, but a very impressive
display of body control and movement. she was cute too now. i enjoyed
just watching them both.
reel grace was a white girl who also had good energy on and off
stage. first noticed her dancing by the bar, her energy stood out and
this made her stand out like she was a performer. like the energy of a
performer is higher than than of the usual attendee. anyways, they were
a full band with keyboards and percussion that opened with chaka’s
"you got the love." she was blue-eyed soulful and the band had
good groove. her voice at times was not heavy or maybe deep enough. she
sang vocally challenging songs, songs where strong voice was needed and
she didnt back away from that.
i was so in a groove, couldnt get off beat. feeling it all over my
body. there was a point when i was vibrating on beat with my arm and my
leg started shaking/vibrating involuntarily. kinda like a dogs does when
you scratch him right. i was able to work myself up so onto the groove
that i was able to kinda step back and feel this event while it was
still going on. able to watch my leg vibrate involuntarily as i vibrated
my hand/wrist/arm to the beat at a higher harmonic (or sumn that was a
multiple rate higher frequency of the beat). my leg involuntarily
vibrtaed at a rate that seemed to also be a harmonic of the beat.
beachmarch 28, 2003
groovin with flatop as did his act on the boardwalk. good funky music.
it feels so good to be around someone with that much rhythm. he played do
it roger do it, grapevine, superman. the music felt so good. after
the crowd dispersed he played some old slapbak that was bangin!. last
time i saw him we talked and he asked me about slapbak. what was cool
was that the crowd was gone and it was just me and him groovin. i was
dancing and he was doing his thang (the for real dancin) facing me so i
could feel his groove and he could feel mine. also ran into a black and
gold steeler buddy on the boardwalk.
april 1, 2003
concert in a store kinda cool. people stood in the aisles of music and
watched. show/music was good. danced and grooved a little bit and it was
cool cause the lights were on and i was able to vibe wide in the
the thing this night was synchronicity.
drifting around the store dancing and vibing i ended up in what seemed
like the international section. music from all over the world when i see
a cd named "nigeria." i checked it out and it is
labeled as a history of the 70’s music from lagos (or sumn). this is
literally the focus
of my next project. since i was drifting i wasn’t in mode to study
and retain any info that could help my project so i didn’t even try. i
picked up the cd, looked at its $19.95 price and noted the number of
songs. i also noted this impressive music section and vowed to return.
as i put the cd back i noticed it was right next to shelia
chandra’s cd. chandra is one of my favorite spiritual singers and
her music is very deep to me. the first song on the disc is lament of
mccrimmon, which may be my favorite of hers. i recently copied music
files to main computer to listen to and chandra was the first of the 3
artists i transferred. i didnt even copy p-funk, but i copied her.
maybe its me and im reading more into it than it is. but this event
moved me. events like this make me believe that what im doing is
"right" and im on the right path. real or imagined it makes me
feel connected to something bigger that is more than what we can detect
with our senses. and from this i get a pleasurable energy. it gives me
confidence, added strength and motivation to pursue my goal.
my buddy said they were playing funkadelic’s one nation under a
groove lp before the show. he also was in attendance with a very cool
friend female with beautiful energy that i really enjoyed exchanging
umd & norva
5/5/2003, 3:56 pm
blvd cruisejune 13, 2003
left work early cause my attitude was really bad. went home and went
straight to bed like around 4pm. woke up around 11pm and needed to go
out and get some water. so i decide to cruise a bit. i ended up cruising
sunset blvd with more energy and confidence than i may have ever had
before. true or not, i felt i could have anything or anyone i wanted.
deep in a groove and puttin it on folx happy smiling and looking people
right back in the eye. i was gettin it one time sittin at a stop light
and this group made up of mostly sistas crosses and im in groove. one of
them does a quick hard bounce as she feels me. it was good. may have
never felt this much confidence before. so much confidence that its
noticeable and its something i am learning to live with and utilize.
this seems to be the beginning of a phase in which my confidence is at a
new higher level.
of power, average white band
june 26, 2003 oxnard performing
(sometimes i feel like turning it out, oh!!!) 90% complete uninhibited
freedom. average white band, tower of power. oxnard performing arts
center. totally relaxed but aware of the "power." knew i could
vibe anyone at anytime. i can make someone across the room feel an
emotion. or i can stimulate and relay emotional information via
eye contact and body movement. and i know it. maybe now i can do it on a
bigger scale. confidence has a lot to do with it. has to be right, i
cant force it. dont want to force it.
had been a longtime since i grooved publicly. little black girl
dancin behind me. then saw her up at the front of the stage later by
herself, had to be like 7 or 8. she was in groove. very close to the
beat but just not quite. when she she would clap it would be on beat.
thinking back it was body control or agility. she hasnt attained full
control of her limbs. still a bit awkward, that would account for the
slightly off beat. i was standing in the far right rows against the
wall. 3 seats and an aisle and also a corner that had very good
acoustics. wondered what people not use to seeing someone groove like
this and with a little girl (i never looked at he though, never even
made eye contact. but we was in a groove.) might think or felt. i
believe it maybe be gestures or body movements that are unmistakably
happy. an animal cannot cannot fake them. you can clearly see it is a
sittin up top i could see who could see what. i saw everybody sittin
down and two people dancin (the native american girl) and how visible
and obvious it was. i guess from experience how much a person seeing
that would absorb. how that would make them feel. just sitting there.
there was a time when i said "i need to go to a place where more
people can see me." it was after i got into deep groove in the back
of the balcony. i went to my assigned seat, which was j25, lower right
one seat off right aisle.
me and native american girl grooved in the aisiles too. they let us
got autograph but they was bust talkin to other people. it got passed
down all fast an actually someone else used it and i took theirs. i
wasnt fightin the crowd at all.
brother behind me on date. when they played a love of your own i went
into groove. and i know he and she felt it. if they liked it i dont
know. how it made them feel i didnt look to notice. but i was in it
90% complete uninhibited freedom. able to go into rhythmic trance.
spinal cord movements. building tension? felt i could have pushed to a
climax. able to go deep even though most of crowd were stillstanders
dancin at very top of last row balcony. black female security guard
standing maybe 15 feet from me. she had to feel it and i was getting it.
i was letting it go and i knew it. i knew i was hittin it.
start slow from inside. feel the small pulse. it can go faster. what
is it? is it spinal muscles? is something really moving or am i sensing
something. or is it just a false sensory stimulation. but i feel it and
at first it feels offbeat but it dont matter cause i know i will groove
it in rhythm no matter what beat it is. maybe all grooves have to come
every move, even moves that make me hit a wrong beat. i will stay on
that wrong beat, or try to keep it. sometimes when i do it eventually
becomes on beat. like when i do a head-shoulder shake and it hits the
wrong beat. imagine the rhythmic ability to stay dead off beat. having
had the experience of being dead on beat, and "in the pocket."
experiencing what its like to be dead off beat and maintain a dead off
beat groove. but that time off beat has to be a beat. it has to be a
factor of the beat so from some angle it is on beat. no matter what two
grooves. if you step back far enough and can listen to any two grooves
long enough, there will be a pattern that is a groove itself . a groove
consisting of the beats the moments when the two grooves come together.
eventually any two grooves will have a simultaneous beat. and that
simultaneous beat will repeat. (i bet we could use numbers to prove
this. pi is the only non repeating number. there is only one pi. if
there were two, we possibly could have two grooves that would not
that off beat time, off groove.
native american female next to me. on beat, she felt it. we danced
never with each other, but many times together. "i danced alone and
never gazed in her direction, this does not mean that we did not trade
affection." last dance gclinton. she danced with her other
day picnicjune 27, 2003 whittier
carry over to company picnic today. was finger poppin up by stage
between speakers. some kinda upbeat american made latin music or sum’n
and i anticipated a pause. while i knew folx was watching. it wasnt like
an auditorium so not many were actually facing the stage. i just kinda
wandered over there and was aware a few people could see me. and when i
nailed that break i heard reaction. female laugh kinda. i was so relaxed
and in groove. they was playin old school lakeside, gap band, etc for a
minute. i came in to the picnic area groovin. ate and it was good. had a
very good night and was still feelin that. wore my greatful dead shirt
proudly. this is another experience of my confidence being
higher than its ever been and me getting use to that.
beach / pchjuly 3, 2003
after walking venice beach more comfortable and with more relazed
confidence than ive ever had i was ridin up pch in a semi groove but
very relaxed state. then is see these 4 white girls in their early 20s
ridin in a huge black luxury suv. they looked like hollywood
entertainment industry administrative assistant types, very cute with
that southern california white girl glossy prettiness. so i pull up
beside them and lower my music to hear what they playin. they was
listening to outkasts "sorry miss jackson." i very relaxedly
look back at them, made eye contact and crinkled my nose and face like
it was just soooo cute to see 4 white girls listening to that music. at
least one of them instantly got it and more then one of them laughed and
said "that was so cool." i digged that they felt me the way i
meant it but more importantly without any verbal communication they knew
exactly what i was implying.
driving farther later down pch they are 3 lanes over as i pull up. i
make eye contact with the one in the back passenger side, i turn down my
music and i listen for their music. its still outkast but i can barley
hear it. i couldnt hear it clearly enough to find the beat ands this
felt weird. it has been so long since i havent instantly found the beat
that the fraction of a second i took to find the beat with her watching
seemed like a "long" time. maybe the beat is hard to find when
any pressure to do so is applied. anyways when i did find it i raised my
hand to snap my fingers to it. writing this now i realize i intended to
show her something about rhythm. but when i was doing it i was in the
moment and just wanted to find the groove and enjoy that with her.
so i raised my hand as i listened and she did too. she was slightly head
noddin to the beat (not sure is she was on it or not) and now we both
had our hands in position to snap our fingers where we both could see
each other and it was as if she was waiting for my cue. i did put
my head down like i was trying to listen to something and block out
distractions. then when i found the beat i snapped my fingers on it and
slowly raised my head to regain eye contact with her and to experience
us being sync’ed in a groove. she was definitely following me and after
a few beats we were snapping our fingers in time to the music in their
it may have been showing off for an attractive female cause more than
likely i felt like puttin it on somebody. and i wanted to showoff to her
that i could easily find the beat to to her groove (music) that i could
barely hear and was remote from and make her feel it.
after the few snaps we were in groove together and she followed my
head nod. she was just ever so slightly hurried, but i could tell she
could feel it. she wasnt relaxed on the beat. like she was hurrying to
it and starting early as opposed to waiting to late for it and having to
quickly catch up or sumn.
by this time i have her in groove so its our groove now. we are
together and i can feel it and i know she can too. i can clearly see
that she can feel that same space and time as me. and ive never seen her
before but now we have this instance in space and time in common
by this time other people in the car notice and there are a few
giggles. writing this now i realize that during all this with her i had
a more serious look. i think a look like i didnt want this to get silly
and giggly. like i want to show you sumthin so pay attention. but not in
a mean demanding way. i wasnt trying to scare or frighten her. i wasnt
to aggressive in movement or instruction. i know i did want to put her
on beat. most of the time i want to show people how to find the beat so
they can know.
i know that sometimes when im out doing it at a concert some of the
people there have never seen happy like this. maybe they dont realize
how to respond to music. they see me in my car and im groovin and being
happy. my movements and gestures are that of a happy healthy animal. non
aggressive strong playful animal. agilie, coordinated (also big and
black) rhythmic. the way i move tells alot about me. it shows
intelligence. that my movements are well thought out. this goes for life
all day. in everything i do. i move like a strong, healthy, agile,
confident animal does. let alone human animal, ALL animals move in these
sometimes i just smile cause i know. i stick my chest out and just
bounce on the beat showing them this is what this animal can do. i
believe it sometimes to be a show of happy power. happy strength. almost
aggressively happy. sometimes i imagine groovin to "their"
music, music that they have listened to all their lives and maybe for
the first time they see an animal respond to that music in this way.
finding and swinging on the beat. (example is til tuesday’s voice’s
carry). i experience the music in a joyful way using the beat to drive
this happy experience.
i know this energy is not just contagious. and it may be
where was i? girl, car, others in car notice and giggles. giggles are
enough to throw a person off beat. the moment after we got into groove i
could no longer keep a straight face and i exploded a laugh scream
growl. it felt good. couldnt have lasted more than 20 seconds this whole
everybody cant do this. some may have the rhythm ability, but not the
appeal. the desire. the communication ability. the demeanor. its a
combination of having the skill and the ability to make it so people can
understand and be receptive to it. not like im selling it, but a lot of
human nature lies in response to presentation/appearance. maybe
marketing/media has a lot to do with it in that the black male is
portrayed as having this quality. white people know old black men are
cool like this and have this ability. they see it in movies from
beverly cop to martin’s black male comes in and cools everybody out
anyhows more and more i cant ignore the fact that what i got may be
special. ithought to myself if i keep going like this i will be able to
walk in a room and heal people. its about faith and believing.
convincing a person that they will be better. actually the adrenaline
will make them feel better at least briefly. maybe thats it, i know how
to excite people. touch them. or maybe i show them a pure happy. a
geniune happy. they can see in my eyes and openness im hiding
nothing and i can be trusted. that theres nothing threatening or
misleading there. its a way to light. they can see it. no hidden
agendas, and no reason for any. they can i see i dont want
of americajuly 4, 2003 rose bowl
im sitting out there before the gates open and i think i hear flashlight
being played live. i was like whooooooooooa!!!. so im thinking its a
band thats gonna perform later inside the rose bowl so i investigate and
i find that is the jazznotes.com and they are setup outside the bowl on
the concourse. needless to say, i was excited…
boogie nights turned it out. we partied. complete confidence and
relaxedness. open vibe. spirit high. very early in the show before most
got there i was on the big screen groovin.
never have i been so high
-jeffery scott mitchell