harmony with everything around you does not mean being totally wimpy and completely going with any flow. i have an obligation to maintain and orchestrate my energy to attain not only proper balance, but to protect myself and steady the flow of energy around me. should external experience and or energy around me go awry the part i play is crucial is steadying things. with harmony comes responsibility
hell, being a part of anything brings responsibility. i learned that a long long time ago and have since pay very close attention to the things i am a “part” of. which means sometimes declaring that i am not a part and do not wish to be included as one. some things you almost have to be a part of and i constantly evaluate the value and cost of such associations. this helps me appreciate them more or realize it’s time to move on. nothing is unconditional. absolutely nothing.
i was thinking. what if a huge meteor smashes into the Earth and wipes out every trace of humanity and life. in regards to the big picture, what difference would it make?
work day 5 of 9 straight. mr. scale said 210.6 this morning, which is as low as it’s been in years. i was thinking with so much going on that i was “kickin’ ass” as far as life is concerned. that may be the case, but then i thought it’s more like i’m in a harmony with a lot of things simultaneously. the orchestration and navigation of my existence with the movement of things and life. being very pleased with the who-what-where-how and when of the person that is me. realizing the “work” i’ve put in over decades to be the me i am now. i’m content but not satisfied, or satisfied and not content. inventorying my resources and capabilities i feel obligated to achieve. i feel that’s my way of “giving back” for all that i have received. achieve at the highest level that i possibly can and fully maximize my opportunity. “achieve” is arbitrary, subjective, ambiguous etc. and it really means just keep doing what i’m doing more and better and let the future determine what my achievements are. 
…and i don’t mind one bit. i absolutely LOVE getting and being older. so far my physical is holding up as my mental capacity operates with greater efficiency from experience. knowledge is such power.
well, mr scale said 213.6 this morning. a number i’m not mad at, and possibly encouraged by. seeing how i went to sleep too early, woke up and had a in bed snack of UTZ Pub Mix and strawberry gooey cheesecakey stuff. it was sooooooo good. ate the salty and the sweet with fruit punch laying in bed watching a NFL network program about Paul Brown. i didn’t realize how great and what kind of impact he had on the game i most love. and he did it in Cleveland! then went to Cincinnati after the team that bears his name fired him. 
the entertainment business- but being able to have a job outside of it. it don’t snow. its liberal in a sense of a social anything goes. the decadence of it- not las vegas decadent but close and far away enough from vegas!!! its a hustle out here and i like the somewhat chaos that hustle can present. some of the biggest opportunities can be found in chaos! LOL so many people are acting or playing a part to the point the part they are playing is real and viable. big city stuff but unlike NYC its spread out so you can drive and i love to drive and roadtrip. science and learning and the beaches and every time i go back home ain’t nothing like seeing places ive worked at or frequent on tv or in movies…