the diversity of people, the craziness, hollywood, music, creativity, being in the mecca of 
the entertainment business- but being able to have a job outside of it. it don’t snow. its liberal in a sense of a social anything goes. the decadence of it- not las vegas decadent but close and far away enough from vegas!!! its a hustle out here and i like the somewhat chaos that hustle can present. some of the biggest opportunities can be found in chaos! LOL so many people are acting or playing a part to the point the part they are playing is real and viable. big city stuff but unlike NYC its spread out so you can drive and i love to drive and roadtrip. science and learning and the beaches and every time i go back home ain’t nothing like seeing places ive worked at or frequent on tv or in movies…
worked til midnight last night and had to be back in the chair at 11:30am, so i didn’t get my usual extended hours of sleep. maybe that with a gloomyish day here in L.A. had me in a very less than excited mood compared to yesterday. assessing the situation later i felt i am happy, just not so excited. so i’m walking to work and on the corner was a girl giving out some kind of handouts and she had her happy bubbly turned up as she should. for a few microseconds i was annoyed by her what seemed to be out of place energetic energy. as i walked by i semi-smiled and told her “you too happy.” she smiled and laughed.
Barry Chenault
is the only thing that counts determined solely by each individual? i’ve said many times before we don’t know what the “goal” is. without a goal there is no right, wrong, up or down. until it is determined what we are here for or what we are trying to achieve, nothing matters. life is the most precious thing we know. conscious is the greatest. for me the goal of life is life, meaning survival. what the importance of the survival of life is we may never know. and if we did, would that be a good thing? could that be a good thing? is knowing your fate a positive for humans the way our evolution has wired our thinking and instincts? 
i hadn’t planned on it. i was perfectly content watching the game on TV and saving the money should the Steelers play in the AFC Championship game. still in bed new year’s day checking my e-mail, i was alerted that NFL sanctioned playoff tickets went on sale. so i clicked clicked just to see what was out there as the opponent has not been named and hell at that time nor had the date or time. seat location, price. i’ve come to all but depend on the severe advantages and good deals when purchasing a single seat, soooooo…. 
