Apr 18

Facebook Post: April 12, 2015

recording today, pushing that red button. folks in the studio means guests in the bathroom. which is the 2nd best motivation behind odor to clean it. might as well vacuum the place as well. I live in the dessert so there’s always dust.11150829_10153302250582125_516061488997881188_n

the building stays quiet on sunday morning. it’s easy like the song. the sound of birds, not even dogs barking. just laying here for a few on a rare don’t have to be anywhere or do nothing morning. time to reflect, recognize and appreciate just how good I got it (or what I need to correct to get it good). money may not be able to buy happiness, but that down payment part is very damn true. as I’ve always been a fan of maslow’s hierarchy.

I am very proud and appreciative of where and what I am in life. If I was religious I would be thanking a God in my humility. but I can look back and see the elements that got me here. and it was my parents and my family. with what I was given I had no choice but to be more than just “successful.” the tools and support were there day one. at times I feel obligated to live up to what was bestowed upon me. and to give back as I feel indebted in ways. I look around and everybody ain’t have it like I did.

jeffery has pretty much all the things jeffery wants. my concern is expanding that “want” list to include “bigger” things. to include more macro level goals. to give back to humanity and the larger picture. accomplishing or attaining is a minor factor in this equation. as is my impact on history.

to be great, you have to be comfortable imagining yourself as great. and that doesn’t mean posting self-worth memes on Facebook as a reminder. it has to be in your every breath. greatness don’t happen on accident.

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Apr 18

Facebook Post: April 15, 2015

10460949_10153289038797125_7618008178282814972_nHappy to be back at work after a restful, relaxing, yet productive 3 days off. Gained a few pounds but it was worth it. (218.6)

This is the first somemore in a very long time when I’ve been skinny, sexy, single, sober, smokingless and an “s” word that means I got a few dollars in my pocket.

I felt good losing weight, but did it smoking them black and milds over the last 6 months. Boy what a difference putting those down has made on my energy and sense of being. But without that habit I have to watch my eatings in that space.

And if I am sexy or not is not the point. I feel I look good and that’s because of a combination of a bunch of things probably mostly non-physical. Attractive is an act and it’s reflected by how good I feel in every movement or action that I make. Walking around this rock 30 lbs lighter shining this little light of mine radiating energy that can be very easily seen and felt.

I left my lunch at home.

wide open honesty makes me happy in this life. being able to unashamedly express and document how I am feeling at any given moment.

I have found a true power in living without lies. There is a magical euphoric freedom that seems to have elevated me above all the bullshit.

 

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Apr 18

Funky Friday’s, I Gots To Have…

11137011_454187191413834_707115933_nit is so worth it that i get my weekly FUNKY FRIDAYS fix. by “so worth it” i mean i do what i have to do to get it in til 1am- after working an 8hr day ’till 2pm- and then be in my chair ready to work an 8hr shift at 4am. this is the 3rd week i’ve abruptly left the spot to go home, get in bed and get an hour of sleep before heading back out to work. i also take a nap for a few hours before going to the club.

last night was good sooooo good somehow i ended up on the mic during Funkentelechy only to draw a blank on the words ive sung for 40 years and i enjoyed every second of it. the crowd, the vibe, the music- and i mean HOW the music is played and by WHOM. everybody can’t play my all time favorite music to my liking (LOL not even P-FUNK themselves on some nights!!) so this weekly opportunity has become a must for me as the cats who come to play know and have lived p-funk most of their lives like i have…

gonna get my dose of funk tonight at funky fridays because i gots to have it, and i thank the funk universe i live in an area where i can get it- even though its changing. white people done heard about it now and are coming out. and they are “dancing” and it changes the vibe i became accustomed to at my favorite funky spot. don’t get me wrong i love white folks but i cant get with viewing sporadic spasms while i’m getting with a vibe. what does it mean that i rarely if ever see people of color move like this when the music is playing?

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Mar 10

Haterade Is An Indicator

20150202_173730Haterade is an alert and indicator system. Not that I actually “hate” anything, but I found when I catch myself not being happy for something it’s because I’m lacking something that I desire. So I recognize that and go get it. I refocus that energy.

Then my irritation and irritability goes away and all is right with the world again.

 

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Mar 10

“Want” Is More Difficult To Identify For Me Than “Need.”

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For me and my situational. Changing aspects of my life coming together in different ways. This is like that now, that done got right now, etc. Interesting combinations in an equation full of variables. I was fairly good at math and this being my 53 summer, 32nd in California I think I got the game down just enough but hopefully not too much…

What do I want? What do I very really want?

Want, not need. Need is easy and is usually very apparent. But want at this time of my life is sometimes difficult to determine. Which leaves things wide open, which is good in ways. Being wide open for opportunity and ready for it.

Many things are in place

And are established

I want something. Or I’m so use to wanting something that I miss or want something to want. For a good while it had been wanting a job or better employment. Or a desire for a particular type of relationship. Those having been satisfied at least temporarily there is nothing that I’m chasing and the waters are calm.

The motor is off and the sails are down. There is no where to be because it feels like I’m there.

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Jan 11

Enjoying Feeling Challenged

1014962_10153063240957125_3340897396544832780_o (1)Training wheels coming off.
Being challenged and it’s been awhile.
Game step up, turn it on time.
I’m not use to being not the best.
Makes me work at it harder.

I compare myself to the best one from the very instant I start.

To the point they can smell it on me how hard I go at it to be on the level with the best

Especially when I have respect for what I am doing and a part of.

Feels like no time to breathe. But it’s a self inflicted pressure that has to be monitored. There has to be a balance to prevent burn-out.But when I’m going after it being inside it my focus and concentration levels can take me thru the roof. It’s good to be challenged at this level. Sometimes the drive and struggle doesn’t feel good, and even that’s good. Turn it up its go time for real…

What makes it self pressurized is the magnitude of the opportunity. The significance of being in a very particular situation and the impact success will have on your life.

Maintaining an intensity and focus while understanding sociability and likeability factor into your grade. The are times when you can be too good and know too much and this can be intimidating. The right balance of sensitivity, personality, intensity, determination and ambition…

Well at least I didn’t eat any sweets. Saturday night and this not good feeling of apprehension towards the upcoming challenging work week after tomorrow is an unpleasantly pleasant feeling to have. The super good $$$ seems to take a back seat to my feelings of being successful. And I think that a good thing. A little bit of “worry” is not only normal and necessary but could and should be a positive influence. Taking a break from my usual “I’m jeffery” level confidence is refreshing. The billions of years of evolution in us is a beautiful thing… Us having worry ain’t no accident

 

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Jan 11

Me And Feeling Good

FB_IMG_1414732213902Yeah, I’m feeling really good. It’s like I’m back to being deeply in love with life “again.” It’s an euphoria I’ve had before.And it’s not loving life and who I am and what I can do but “in love” with it like it was a girl friend
I can feel the energy shooting thru my body literally. Like adrenaline.

I was just out driving around in the rain for like an hour listening to my music and me singing it when i got your message and I pulled over and parked just to reply and enjoy the rain.
It made me think about why am i in this way and I thought I’m basically doing all the things I’ve ever dreamed of in life.

And I’m free to express my happiness and enthusiasm openly again. I can let my light and energy shine and radiate. Everybody doesn’t seem to be to keen on expressing any kind of extreme emotion, even happiness. I’m not comforable being exhuberant about life around some people.

Yes, I went over all the factors involved thats why I came to that conclusion. Right down to singing the music I’ve loved so deeply for so long at Funky Fridays.
I’m exploding with energy and enthisiasm

I “need” an outlet for that zealous energy. Facebook gives me that outlet. I use to write dailys on my webpage and I have years of expressive writing. I’ve always “needed” that. Everybody is on Facebook from my family childhhod everywhere. And if you notice I am actually not talking to anybody but everybody.

When I write like that I dont expect response, so I’ll have a conversation with myself!! LOL People inbox me or tell me when they see me stuff that lets me know I’m being heard and thats perfect and in ways it doesn’t matter. It’s the feeling I get writing and expressing that gets me off.
And then re-reading it and re feeling it again. Then going thru life and creating and doing more to go higher and higher.

I’ve wanted someone to share that with but very few can “understand” it so I started writing to the universe publicly, the ups and the downs. I am in love with my experience.

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Jan 11

Us, Them And Issues I Don’t Identify With

1016889_10152953031552125_4783751452359082549_nWow, he talks white. I LOVE HIM! LOL damn I like what he said and how he said it. It explains a lot and maybe why I think the way I do about my life and myself.

Since when is knowledge of self..’talking white?!’… It would behoove you to get some…..smh

Talking white means how it’s said not what! Such enunciation and articulation though a tad new yorky. He never mentioned race

Jeffery…Why is correct speech and grammar “talking white”? Maybe you really don’t understand the message this brother is conveying…”Talking white” is yet another phrase we’ve heard growing up and we’ve internalized into being truth..people have told me I talk white or “you speak so well, (for a black girl)…I instantly shut them down and bring the truth to them..From this statement I believe that someone has told you or convinced you subconsciously that black people are dumb/uneducated/unteachable…you’re putting yourself back into the box so many have helped you to get out of..I pray that you Jeffery can get your own foot off of your own neck..be blessed brother.

Yeah, I guess me and the people around me are so far “beyond” the talking white thing and its so not a problem anymore that I can joke about it, as I was doing. In fact the many times I’ve been told that I took it as a compliment and didn’t shy away or be ashamed. Yeah, I was teasing. Now what may be an issue is that just like I’m beyond that problem I may be beyond the people with that problem.

Why would it be a compliment? You still don’t get it. It should be understood that EVERYONE should speak correctly, automatically. It should not be a rarity to encounter a brother or s sister who has command of the language. How about this one??

Like I said, I’m beyond that battle. And maybe at a point where it’s too late for those who still think that way. I take it as a compliment because the people making that statement realize the distinction between me and them and how I carry myself. I get what they mean by “you talk white” though the phrasing may be incorrect it’s not strictly based on a racial issue.

Me and them? YOU ARE THEM…YOU ARE US..WE ARE EACH OTHER

No, I don’t agree with that. There are us,’ thems and we’s at all levels. It’s up to me to find where I fit in and what and who I resonate with. And let me say I agree with your basic premise, and I practice what you are saying, I may not take it as that serious at this point. I simply can’t identify with certain issues. But I’m glad that we have others who do. I’m grateful even. Yet we are all in this together and I support everything and everybody to a vast degree

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